Why do I blog?

From the reactions, I got from people, I notice that some of the readers do not really understand why I started blogging and why now. This month it is 6 years ago I made the hardest choice of my life and left the cult and the faith I grew up in. You can read more […]

Burning Earth awaits the Messiah – chapter I

Summary: Burning Earth awaits the Messiah, but which one, a democratic, dictator, king, communist, nationalist or a religionist? Current Affairs: In a world full of hatred, scandals, corruptions, financial imbalances, moral imbalances, racisms, cruelties, drugs, weapons and wars, every leader thinks of themselves as taking best decisions for the country they represents individually. Not realizing that […]

OMG my first concert in an arena

In a lifetime there are a lot of first times. And the last few years I have done a lot already that I wasn’t allowed to do before. In the Message, most of any entertainment was kind of forbidden since it was from the Devil. Clapping and cheering was idol worshipping. Worldly music was off […]

I am sorry, I did it too.

This is not the first time I have said this. But I am sorry. Sorry for how I treated the people when I was in the Message. I was on my high horse looking down to everyone who didn’t accept the Message as truth. I condemned everyone who didn’t live the Message life by the […]

I wanted to say but I didn’t

Whenever I was joyful Wherever I was cheerful I wanted to say but I didn’t. In school times, when I was a kid After coming home from school I wanted to say but I didn’t. Every time I got to eat my favorite dishes Every time I got to drink my favorite drinks I wanted […]

Kashmir: the burning beauty

There are many places in the World that I have been to and many that I want to go still. I have been to England, the USA, Turkey, Dubai and many more places. They all are very amazing places to visit. They all have their own special magic that attracts the tourists like if you […]

Spiritual abuse: They kept track of my period

If you don’t know what Spiritual abuse is you can learn about it in my first blog-post about this subject: Spiritual abuse: Some abuse is not physical. In my last blog-post Spiritual abuse: our first encounter I told about our first encounter with our last pastor and his elder. For me, that was the first and […]

turning toward the light

It’s almost spring season in Pakistan. Everywhere flowers will blossom, trees will be lush green again, migrated birds will come back soon in a few days and the great lost essence of spring season can be felt by the mildly moist breezes flowing smoothly. These amazing breezes are felt better with all the peace we […]

Spiritual abuse: Our first encounter

In my last post: Spiritual abuse: Some abuse is not physical, I explained what spiritual abuse is. I have to make clear that in ‘The message’, which is an international cult, you have pastors who are really sincere and only want the best for “their” people. But in my experience, unfortunately, the majority of the […]

Spiritual abuse: Some abuse is not physical

What is spiritual abuse? Spiritual abuse happens when a spiritual authority, such as a cult leader or abusive pastor, wants to control you and want completely obedience. A spiritually abusive group often claims that they are the only ones that have the right doctrines. They often claim that salvation only depends  on belonging to their […]